Money as currency towards PURPOSE – Fixing my money mindset issues

For anyone who personally knows me, there’s no big surprise that I have “money mindset” issues. I fully believe in the ideas of manifestation and focusing on abundance. However, the idea of changing my mindset through manifestation/abundance techniques has really never resonated with me as a way of fixing my money mindset issues. In fact, what I’ve discovered is that I have a fear of money and how it may affect me – not a manifestation or abundance problem. I’ve carried the belief that money is evil, selfish and leads to immoral activities for quite some time now. This money mindset conditioning has developed over time, with its beginnings in my college years doing social justice work against mountain top removal mining in the coalfields of West Virginia (watching coal companies rape and pillage small communities in an effort to make more capital) up to my last career job working as a Digital Marketing Director for a luxury jeweler. Recently (literally yesterday), a lightbulb went off when I listened to a live video on Instagram of a few women entrepreneurs speaking about their views on money and how they’ve had to overcome their own money mindset issues. The idea of money as currency towards PURPOSE was mentioned and I am now hooked on trying to rewire my brain to accept this way of thinking.

Reconditioning my mindset all starts with reflection. It’s actually funny because when I worked non-profit in my early 20s, I left the field because I realized there was so much I could do for the causes I believe in if I was the one with capital to contribute, instead of the one begging the half-interested financially elite. However, somewhere down the line, I began feeling influenced by money and the crowd it often led me towards working with. (I’m an empath, so I often have to remain mindful that I don’t get sucked into other people’s worlds and ways of thinking while mistaking it for my own.) I am currently unemployed as I deal with a serious chronic illness (autoimmune chronic pancreatitis) and search for how to balance financial responsibilities with the healing of my body and soul. With all that said, I’m ready to start thinking about how to make money again. This time with a renewed sense of mindfulness and PURPOSE and also a need for a flexible, career lifestyle that will work for my current health situation.

So, how can money be the currency for purpose and how can I incorporate this into my financial goals? I know that I’m a broken record, but really, everything in life turns towards mindfulness. Often, I get in such a rush and become impatient with needing results that I don’t always take the time to make the decisions that are best for me. Or, in my case as an empath, I fall into people pleasing behaviors and lose sight on what I WANT from my work. Therefore, I am going to set some serious financial goals for myself with varying levels of purpose behind each goal.

Due to my chronic illness, I am going to start with very attainable goals of helping my fiance with bills (he’s currently taking all of the financial responsibility), while also creating stretch goals attached to some level of charitable giving. As my stretch goals increase, I plan to do more and more to save towards a larger financial gift to some organizations I believe in. I guess I’m looking at this almost like a religious tithing – something I used to do when I was more involved in the church. I’m hoping that by adding this conscious level of purpose behind generating income into my life again, I won’t feel so blocked off from financial advances and blessings.

This is the very beginning of my journey towards shifting my money mindset, but I wanted to share in order to record my progress and let anyone else know who may be out there with similar money mindset issues what I’m trying to do to help myself gain the financial freedom almost all of us need to live a happy, purposeful life.

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The Journey Of A Thousand Miles Begins With …

Finish the quote. “The journey of a thousand miles begins with…… one step!” That’s right. I’ve learned through my many years of failing at things that usually I’ve already given up before I’ve begun. I am determined not to give up this time – even if that means, one step at a time.

“The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.” – Lao Tzu

So, this realization of needing to start and continue brought me to my first question. Who needs an excuse to shop at Sephora or Ulta? Definitely not this girl! However, of course I had to give myself some purpose to up my skin care budget as I see my 30’s quickly evaporate the youth from my face. (I also needed something to tell the fiance, since I knew he would most definitely notice the cost of my new favorite hobby.) So, there I was, reasoning with my fears, when my friend Amanda encouraged me to start this blog.

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My first fear was, “You’re too late.” The second fear was a little more personal…. “You’re too lazy.” It’s true. I have not been obsessed with taking care of my skin since birth and I am definitely NOT someone who doesn’t know how to relax. (Who are these people and how do I do that for someone else?!? <— The one million dollar question has been asked and possibly the answer to my happiness.) In fact, I can sleep anywhere (usually any time) and could be a champion couch potato. I’ve always summed my lazy side up to “being creative” and “not athletic” but that’s kind of a cop out. The truth is that I’m ADD and have a very strong tendency of switching priorities on the fly or running myself so hard that I eventually burn out and quit. Therefore, I am very aware of “slow and steady wins the race” and that’s exactly what I know I need to do to get my skin back on track. Therefore, I’m trying to find every hack to make sure I stay on top of my skin care regime and make this passion into a lifestyle and, hopefully by default, perfectly smooth and shining skin.

So what gives me hope now that I’m in my 30’s? Well, I decided it’s too early to give up. Yes, I’ve lived for 31 trips around the sun, but I have a lot of hope that this is only close to 1/3 of my entire life. That’s right. I want to live to be old – maybe even over 100! I know that I can’t avoid the inevitable and we all eventually show some age, but I’d like to do it as gracefully as I can. This passion for youthful skin, plus a love for spas, healthy living, skin treatments, facials, lotion, oils, etc. is what inspired me to start this blog. If you like it, please thank my friend Amanda. She is the one who gave me the final push to get it off the ground.